urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alysssssssssa alyssa alyssa 2007-10-03T21:35:30Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alysssssssssa:36982 2007-10-03T21:35:30Z 2007-10-03T21:35:30Z &nbsp;looks like maryland's where it's at. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alysssssssssa:36742 2007-09-11T23:25:26Z 2007-09-11T23:25:26Z it 's unfair, how the greatest people i know, have to pass away. none of them deserve it...to all of you, rest in peace&lt;3<br /><br /><br />"it's really hard to try and move on. knowing that you're not here, and you're gone. forever in my heart is were you'll stay, i promise i won't forget you until my dying day." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alysssssssssa:36397 2007-09-08T03:09:51Z 2007-09-08T03:09:51Z <p>everything is sooo bad, i don't even know how to handle myself anymore...especially because i have no self-esteem or enough confidence to get back up and shake things off, so i'm pretty much stuck. i'm stuck and beating myself up because i'm not perfect and i'm letting everyone else do the same....everything gets to me, yea i'm weak, and i hate it. i don't have any friends anymore, but yea, that's my fault. i'm a dumb ass, but nothing i can do now. i care wayyyyy too much, and fuck up even more. i hate everything, including myself, and i seriously think i'm sick. i just wanna start over. i'm so stupiddddddddddd, god everything is sooooo stupid.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:alysssssssssa:36078 2007-09-03T21:17:36Z 2007-09-03T21:17:36Z <p>i never use this, but i'm in desprite need to let my feelings out...<br /><br />i really wish i could think before i act..saying shit i don't mean only becaus ei;m angry makes matters so much worse. i wish none of this happend, or just wouldn't get this bad. i'm not looking forward to going to school, where everyone hates me. i just don't think i can deal with much of anything anymore. i'm really falling apart, and i've got no one to help me this time...looks like i'm on my own. i'm so stupid, and sometimes i just want to kick myself in the face...but i know it's not all me..it's not all my fault. i'm sick of being accused for something i didn't do. i just really need to get away. i need to start over. i can't wait until the day my dad tells me it's time for everyone to start packing because we're moving to maryland. i really can't wait, and i promise you, i won't miss anyone...except cortney. but there's no problem there because i know we'll stay in touch.</p>